Thursday, February 01, 2007 4:02 PM
ahhh!
the prata people havent been meeting up that regularly for the past two months :( which is rather depressing (especially for me since im bumming around at home most of the time anyway.)
dunno why when my friend wrote on her livejournal that she was glad she's working and living life with conviction and that she was also glad she wasnt bumming around at home like some people (which i immediately got the hint she was referring to me) i felt kinda hurt. like somehow she managed to stab me with her seemingly innocuous comment. getting increasingly sensitive to stuffs these days. maybe that's because i have too much time in my hands to contemplate life with.
it's not like i dont want a job. im speaking really frankly here (and i refuse to update my own livejournal) i did serious job searching. i've applied 5 times already, and none called me back to tell me i'm shortlisted. it's depressing okay. its really not like i enjoy bumming around at home. i dunno why i have such a big reaction to what she wrote on her lj. but it really hurts to hear ppl saying that im still leaching off my parents when i'm old and capable enough to find a job.
somehow i dont feel like going on a job search with her anymore. was supposed to, after cny, but her comment on lj killed my enthusiasm. sucks lah. where are my friends man.
i wonder where are you guys now! with matthew and james in ns, yen xm sook rox and yean all working, ks still studying, im the aimless one now. and we are drifting arent we?
zzzz i wish cny will come sooner than it would.
karin
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